Hello loves, Surprise! I'm back<3
I know it has been a long time since I have been on here. I wanted to say how sometimes we get discouraged or distracted and we lose our interest so I apologize to you all. Some of you have checked in on me and have asked me if I would ever return to posting on my blog, well I want to say I am back and I don't plan on leaving. The last time you all heard from me was March 7th, 2022. What a ride this last year has been, since my last blog post a lot has changed. I can't wait to fill you guys in. I hope I can pick up where I left off in the meantime let's do a quick recap before I get into what this last year has been like for me.
The Gym: As seen above, I made my two years at the gym. I last spoke about how I was keeping myself busy by making time for the gym. I was just about to hit my two years of working out, and now look at me three years in, time really does fly. One of the biggest things I don't want to forget that I mentioned then was how I was working to achieve my version of a "perfect body" due to the fact that I naturally compare myself to others. Slowly but surely putting in the hard work, I was able to get to my weight goal by working out, staying consistent and also meal prepping which was one of the biggest things that I had slacked on in the past. The gym was my form of therapy both mentally and physically and it also helped build some confidence that I needed. Let's call that "Happy weight" for now. The silly thing in this all is although, I did make it to my weight goal, I still didn't find myself feeling my best. My body had changed and I had gained weight in places where I normally wouldn't. Not to mention, none of my jeans were fitting me anymore. I had also became a size Medium! I am not saying this is a bad thing but this was all knew to me lol. Now I can't wait to gain all of that extra weight back. Yes I recently lost all of the weight I gained NOT on purpose. Like I said, this will all make sense later as I keep filling you guys in. Don't worry :)
Journaling: I briefly mentioned how I wanted to get back into journaling because it is such a beautiful thing to look back at and be able to see the progress you make through whatever journey you are on. I was able to do just that and journal my day to day doings or whenever I felt inspired to do so. I am so glad I have some journal post from last year even my last blog post has a few things that I wrote in there that are highly more for me today than they were then. It's crazy to say this but as I went back to see what I spoke about in my last post I feel as if I was speaking to my future self without even knowing it. Here is where you can find that post so you can see what I mean when I say these things. https://www.jessdoingmybest.com/post/feeling-inspired
"If you know, you know I always preach that everything happens for a reason. God always works in your favor never question him because even if at the moment you’re uncertain about things he will turn around and show you why it didn’t work out how you had imagined, but instead why it worked out the way it did".
Phew, that is just one prime example of past me showing up for future me. What do I mean by that? Sometimes when things occur in our life we tend to question why they happen, what did we do to deserve that? Rather than look at what can I learn from that experience? Even when it hurts and you may not know the reasons that will later be shown to you, just remember truly everything happens for a reason. How beautiful is it that those words I quoted above from myself mean more to me today than they did a year ago. Why, you may ask? This will all make sense to you as readers as I keep unraveling what I have been up to. Don't you worry, you all know I have always been an open book, and now it's time I reopen it and share my story little by little. :)
Last Recap; Church: Church was something I had gotten back into at the start of 2022. I am very pleased to say I am still attending church every Sunday and my relationship with God has only gotten deeper and stronger. In my last post I shared that the Pastor said "You're not responsible for others actions, but you are responsible for your reaction". Throughout this last year that's something that stuck with me because I used to be so quick to react to things that people around me would do to me. It's like they would almost purposely do things to cause me to react in a negative way. I have matured and grown so much that instead of causing more chaos I give it to God and let him deal with it. There are so many other beautiful things I can share about church that I have learned throughout my journey but I will save that for another blog post. In the meantime just know I Trust in God. <3
As I mentioned because it has been so long since I last posted a blog I wanted to do a recap before adding things that I was up to since the last time we spoke. From April until June I worked as an aide for a first and fourth grade classroom. In June 2022 when the school year ended I decided to dye my hair red! Yes I went full on copper red. I loved it and it was fun during the summer. I was definitely out there living my best life with my friends having a summer to remember.
In July I started talking to someone. WHAT? ME? talking to someone, hehe I know right! yes you read that right, after two years of being single and focusing on me I decided to give dating another chance, but let's just leave that there for now. That will be a topic for another blog post to come. Like I mentioned above, there is no surprise that my blog is an open book , and if you are new here then you'll quickly learn that I share the most intimate parts of my life because these are things that are not only relatable but not a lot of people are open to talk about. Think of it as an older sister or friend giving you advice as she navigates and goes through the hardships herself. I can't wait to continue to dive in and talk about what else the year brought for me. I do ask that you guys bear with me, I will be trying my best to add small details as I want to keep you guys engaged.
October 2022 will always be one that I will never forget. I did so many fun things, I have a lot of memories on a film camera that I haven't gone to get developed yet but I can imagine it will be bittersweet when I do go and develop those. I went to Temecula winery with friends on a party bus. I also went to the beach for a picnic day that turned into a surprise. Halloween Horror Nights right before the 31st. For halloween I dressed up as Jessie from Toy Story since I had red hair I wanted to do something fun for the kiddos. My best friend and I always do a costume together so at night we dressed up as Thing 1 and Thing 2 (The perfect pair). Our costumes are always a hit and a favorite, each year we try to come up with different things and I am so grateful she is always down for my ideas lol.
November 2022: This month was my last month I'd be at the school I was at, because if you know sometimes we are moved from our sites. It was a bittersweet moment saying goodbye to the kiddos but I later learned my new placement was exactly where I needed to be. December I entered my last year of my twenties, IYKYK I don't really like having a birthday in December but my friends always make me feel so loved.
Looking back now that we are currently in December 2023, I believe there was a reason why I stopped posting on my blog. Everything always leads you to where you are supposed to be even if at the time it doesn't make sense, it will all make sense later. I am feeling more inspired than ever and I hope you guys find interest in wanting to see what I have been up to or where I lead this too. Tell me, what are some things that you have learned since we last spoke? What did you do to cope with changes in your life? I would love to hear from you and I can't wait to start inspiring others again. Until Next Time.
Love always,
Jessica Nicole.